"Sensitive" sculpture by Miquel Blay, 1910.
I've shied away from blogging about something so personal because I fear making readers uncomfortable so I will be very non-graphic about my thoughts.
My colon tumor biopsy returned as adenocarcinoma, colon cancer.
My course of treatment has been swift, I've had a CT scan with both ingested iodine dye and intravenous dye, to which I found the machine to be scary.
So far....CT scan of the abdomen shows no metastases to the liver or lung (what lung that could be seen), ruling out stage 4.
Oh, I love you, I love, love you machine!
I am informed that there will be more CT Scans before I'm done.
I'm going to be in surgery soon, the whole right side of my colon will be removed and the lymph nodes will be biopsied, if one shows the spread of the tumor than it means chemotherapy. I'm alright with that considering it is a relief not to have stage 4 cancer.
I'm uncomfortable and fatigued most of the time and was sick Saturday night, a combination of bad roasted peppers, nerves and a heavy gut feeling. This is a living thing inside, waiting to come out and die.
Wikipedia describes ''gut feeling" as "may also be used as a short handed term for a individuals "common sense", what is considered the "right thing to do."
My CT scan showed a 5 centimeter sized cyst on my left ovary a adenobenign cyst and 5 centimeters is the surgical size for this kind of cyst. It will not shrink on it's own. The right ovary may be involve in the "mass". The "gut feeling" thing to do...is...removal of both, the names are too close for my desire. The possible issue in the future could be, scar tissue might interfere with....as in another surgery and chemo will destroy anyway.
Menopause...here I come!
And on that scar tissue......
Wikipedia says "Gut feeling, like all reflective unconscious comparisons, can be reprogrammed by practice and experiences."
I can live with that, signed ; (semi-colon) C&G Design
GUT FEELING BY DEVO, November 1988
From the Devo album, "Are we not men, we are D-E-V-O"
Words and photos by Dawn,C&G Design.